One Day At A Time
One Day at a Time
Emotional pain and Physical pain are totally different to deal with accordingly. As the Physical pain there are pain pills to use, the Emotional is very different as it covers Depression and other Emotions. Family Doctors are good for the pain remedies, a Psychiatrist is needed for the Emotional troubles. I am very fortunate to have very good ones working with me not against what I say is wrong.
Living alone with M.S. can be hard to accept by some people, in my case I like it as I have the drive to get better and walk again. M.S. has scared live-in partners away because of the fear of my Health declining more than it had already. What they did not realize is their stress about my Health does not help, it actually makes things worse for everyone.
Since being Diagnosed with M.S. I have lost mobility and strength of my right leg and the strength of my left leg, which is why I am in a power wheelchair or a scooter. My symptoms vary depending on if I am in remission or I am in the relapsing stage.
In other words it all depends on the heat inside or outside the house and/or the stress I am under at the time. The heat factor takes the energy right out of me always wanting to sleep. With the different elements of pain, they seem to be enhanced at that time with heat. The best temperature for me is about 60 degrees F/ 16 degrees C.
With the Stress in life caused by others also including the stress caused by myself. The little things that cause small agitations which fester as they grow with others. As they accumulate together I can feel the tension grow and wait for the temper to explode. This can be stopped I find by dealing with the agitations as soon as they arrive. This might offend some but they are the Judgmental ones who are never wrong in their eyes about their opinion which they voice frequently and loud. These are the negative ones I attempt to avoid as Depression comes with them.
09/09/09
Taking life one day at a time is easier said than done for some as some pains from the past still sting. I have lived with pain daily for over 20 years, body pain is easily dismissed it is the heartache that is not easily forgotten. Dealing with problems as they arrive seems to be right way instead of letting them build inside until they become unbearable to handle.
One day at a time with one problem at a time then move on to the next one to handle. The last 2 weeks has been hard to handle with all the Emotional and Physical pain the last past little while for anyone to cope. The Emotional state of knowing what was happening then receiving the news of my Sister Ascending. This part explained some then more was revealed at her funeral about other sick family. How can you take this one step at a time? With strong willpower and very stable Emotions which I only have sometimes not all time.
09/15/09
Our Ascended Angel
We lost a valuable and Loved Sister, Wife,
Grandmother and Mother,
She was the oldest of the 5 Sisters and 5 Brothers
but still younger than one Brother,
She wished to be remembered with fond
memories by one and all,
Wanting everyone to stand with
Pride straight and tall.
Not wanting any tears which only
signifies pain and sorrow,
Look for the enjoyment of your lives
ahead starting tomorrow.
Staying in touch with her immediate family
but never trying to show her pains,
Never complaining nor looking for sympathy
or use them for personal gains.
She never let her sickness stop the
travelling they used to do,
Along the way if family was close
she always visited them too.
Those which have seen and known
this Angel all will agree,
She was good to others because what
she gave was totally guilt free.
This Angel does not want anyone to
be sad or wear a frown,
She was loved by many and her name
is Nellie (Derowin) Brown.
Written by,
Michael Derowin
© 09/10/09
This Poem is a Dedication to our Fallen Angel Nellie (Derowin) Brown. The Daughter of and predeceased by both parents Joseph and Grace Derowin. Born July 8 1943 passed away August 29 2009. Nellie married her Soul mate Ben Brown September 11th 1962. They were Blessed with 4 children which one had a short life before being called by the Lord. Ben and Nellie were Blessed with 12 Grandchildren and 5 ½ Great Grandchildren at the time of Nellie’s passing.
Ben and Nellie had 47 happy and trying times during those years together. Never going to sleep angry with each other keeping the arguments to themselves as it did not concern anyone. Raising their children with Integrity, Honour and Respect for others has turned out well for everyone.
Ben and Nellie have loved each other for almost 50 years with all of their Heart and Soul. Their Love will last to Eternity as it was true and sent from the Heaven above.
Written with Pride by,
Michael Derowin
©10/02/09
11/06/09
I am going to apply to the Government for a License for Legal marijuana for my M.S. to help where medications do not work well. Medications take time for the body to absorb where the Marijuana is instantly absorbed and working on the pains and cramps. Smoking it in a joint is like smoking a cigarette but more relaxing and calming of a lot of pains.
The Government also has a license to grow your own for personal use only. If I owned my own home or a place I could grow a plant or two I would just to know the strength or potency of the THC level. I do not know what the Marijuana the Government provides is like but I am willing to try it.