Fatigue / Depression
Fatigue / Depression
Which is the hardest to fight against?
When it comes straight to the point they do come hand in hand with each other. So naturally you would think you beat one you have beaten the other. This is the biggest lie ever stated as you do not need one to have the other because of all the other issues/factors involved.
Depression comes in different levels and are handled differently some are easy while in other cases it is harder to fight because of the circumstances. This can range from
failing a test you thought you passed
the splitting up of a Relationship
the loss of a longtime job
the loss of a Loved one
the Diagnoses of an incurable Disease
poor finances
lack of self-esteem
These are just a few causes of Depression but not the level of Depression. The levels range from crying yourself to sleep while waking in a better mood to wanting to commit suicide. Not everyone goes to the extreme of wanting to end their life or meaning what their thoughts are at the time. Mood Stabilizers and/or Antidepressants are used to help with this for some Patients.
Fatigue comes in different levels depending on the activity, energy level, and the weather. Most people workout or do activities that take their energy level down but in no time they are back to normal. With Chronic illnesses like M.S. it does not take long to take the energy away and at times for the whole day.
heat
low energy level
overworking oneself
doing everything at a time
not knowing how to pace your activities
This maybe caused by the weather of all things or even housework can cause a shortness in your energy level. When it comes to the weather the hotter it is the lower your energy is and a nap maybe needed to recover unlike everyone who enjoys the heat in the sun. The Spring and Fall are the times of year I like the best as the heat of the Summer has not begun or it is gone for the year. I find the best temperature in my home is between 12 and 15 degrees C. or 50 to 60 degrees F. In the Winter when it is fairly cold I still get awkward looks for wearing a Fall coat outside where everyone is bundled up in their Winter gear.
08/30/09
Yesterday had to be one of the hardest I have had since being Diagnosed to deal with pain physically and Emotionally. My Sister who also had Progressive M.S. passed away during Cancer treatments from pneumonia about one month after surgery. I never got to say good-bye to her yet but will at the funeral. She lived in Dawson Creek, British Columbia which is about a 12 hour drive depending on the driver of the vehicle.
Physically it drains the energy from me which causes pain in the muscles that usually work for me under normal circumstances. The pain comes from the cramping of muscles that under normal circumstances everyday work to a certain extent.
Emotionally I went into a Depression 4 days prior to me finding out about my Sister passing away. Feeling like I was going pass away from the Emotional doubts of being not good enough for anything or anyone. I still have doubts of this but not as strong, they are low enough of a concern to work around.
10/21/09
My M.S. has its own strange way of showing up to bug me as it brings a Depression along for the ride. Just come out of one case and another arrives for a different reason but with the same thought process. I write Poetry when I am down and the romance of the Poems cheers me up again until the next time.